...about me thinking...

I have promised myself not to be easily distracted by provocative outside influences.

For a certain two-faced, one-sided, hypocrite-minded person successfully opened my eyes today, and made me realize that again, life is full of lies .

It's homo homini lupus for real. And once you feel threatened, your defense system just covers you up and clears your rational senses away.

Yet foer me there's no use of intelligence, personal pride, achieved social status, or anything connected to fame and fortune, if in the end, you are too busy nursing your overly centered ego that you've forgotten to care about the abandoned voices of others.

And sorry, for a supposedly-admirable role model, you have showed your real self as painfully similar to those unworthy people.

Care to elaborate, Sir?
Thank you. It still sucks either way.

...about 11 layers of jj...

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
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Name: jj

Birthday: jan 18

Current Location: jTown!

Eye Color: brown

Hair Color: brown

Righty or Lefty: lefty.. i wish >_<

Zodiac Sign: capricorn

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LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
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Your fear: thunder, cockroaches, claustrophobic-potential places

Your perfect pizza: anything in pizza marzano

Goal for future: social worker, singer

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LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
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Your thoughts first waking up:
lonely is the new groove, always *sobs*

Your best physical feature:
my hair!

Your bedtime:
eleven to five in general

Your most missed memory:
century hills n the choir.. hux..

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LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
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Pepsi or Coke: diet coke!

McDld's or Burger King: mcd!

Single or group dates: single

Adidas or Nike: three stripes dong =)

Lipton Tea or Nestea: nestea.. langganan kantin =)

Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla

Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

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LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
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Smoke: i hate smokers [no offense]

Take a shower: luv em!

Think you've been in love: i am in love rite now

Believe in yourself: trying to

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LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
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Drank alcohol: yep

Gone to the mall: this is a rhetorical question isn't it?

Been on stage: yep

Eaten Sushi: yep yep yep!

Dyed your hair: am planning to

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LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER:
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Played a stripping game: hahahaha.. long time ago, yea..

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LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD
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Age you're hoping to be
married: dunno..

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LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
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Best eye color: brown, hazel

Best hair color: soft blonde!

Clothing style: er..

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LAYER TEN: TIME
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1 MINUTE AGO: surfing thru fs

1 DAY AGO: muter2 lembang ampe bingung

1 YEAR AGO: around this time? hum.. lupa..

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LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE:
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I LOVE: myself! hahaha

I FEEL: deprived

I HATE: hypocrites

I HIDE: nothing!

I MISS: *piip*

I NEED: to breathe..
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Huff. There you go.

Another chain-blogging as a post. This is getting to be a habit, you know.
But what can I do? Chain-bloggings are fun =) haha.

Have a fabulous week, guys.
Thanks for the UNFORGETTABLE suprise party you guys gave me the other day!!

...thinking...

Just this afternoon I got into a serious talk about the future with Henry. We were actually thinking about what we're gonna be like in the next five to ten years or so, studying abroad. To be honest with you, the conversation was a bit unpredictably shocking, to say the least.

Henry kept saying funny things like:

"Eh, Je, berarti kalo kita udah sekolah di luar negeri, kita pasti bisa ngerjain TOEFL dengan gemilang dong?"

...atau;

"Emangnya bener ya kalo sekolah diluar negeri itu cuma buat orang-orang borju yang kurang kerjaan dan kebanyakan duit?"

...lalu;

"Loh, terus kalo kita sekolah di luar negeri emangnya nggak jadi jaminan bisa dapet kerja?"

...juga;

"...Eh, Je, Akuntansi di Singapur sama di Australia sama nggak sih bentuknya?"

Waduh-duh.
Kesimpulannya?
Sepertinya si Henry udah terlalu percaya sama omong gedenya HD monyong-aneh-rese-freaky-bin-tukang-bohong itu.
Duh, Hen, jangan mau diboongin melulu atuh sama dia.

Anyways. Enuff with the Henry-going-HD stuff.

It's three days before my birthday, and I am turning blue.
What's with the sudden moodswings and the severe emptiness I'm currently immersed in?

Somebody help me get a grip on myself, please.
Have a nice week, guys.

...about updates...

Well.
Sorry for not being in touch for quite some time.

The thing is, life's been busy. And it gets more and more hectic by each day that passes by.
I'm beginning to realize that my high school is actually coming to an end, and that fact just stabs me dead.

Oh, no.
Whatever happened to those supposed-to-be-long-and-boring period of three years?

Anyways.
Wish me luck for my TOEFL iBT test tomorrow, guys!

I'll fill you in with the interesting events of the new year in the next post.
Buh-bye! =)