Monday, September 29, 2008 is a state of grace, transcending time and space...

Currently listening to: State of Grace (Mystical) - Britney Spears

Monash Uniting Church, Princess Hwy, Sept 28 2008

Before we get all cheeky and excited because Spring is really here, let me get something off my chest.
Seizure alert. Don't say you haven't been warned.

I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I FREAKING HATE IT!!

*throws textbooks around the room in fury*

...Okay. At least that makes me feel better.
*takes in a deep breath*

But really. I have never felt this stressed-out and tired my whole life.
I'm a mess. Feels like now my life is in total disarray just because I've been putting myself on the line working my ass off for that demented MKC2210 during the past two weeks. I mean, a guy has its limits. All the way I've been trying to keep my sanity in check, but at the end of the day, I just couldn't stay sane. I've had enough. And all these ridiculous amount of workload and extremely high expectations set by the unit has finally taken a toll on me.

I. Have. Officially. Lost. It.

And oh no, I am so NOT exaggerating here. Try putting yourself in my shoes and you'll see what I mean. Like, seriously, people. Talk about severe uni depression. *sighs*
MKC2210 has just successfully ruined my life in just two weeks. My eating habit is screwed, I'm severely sleep-deprived, there are breakouts all over my face, my out-of-control emotions are only thisclose to experiencing a mental breakdown, and right now my room looks like a frikkin' dumpster, again.

Not to mention the fact that right now my body is showing freaky symptoms of stress-induced rashes. Scary red patches are appearing in my right shoulder area up to my collarbone, and those patches itch like hell. I am so gonna have to see a doctor tomorrow. *scratch scratch*

I never knew that Monash University could actually make such a huge mess out of a certain overworked Asian dork. *sighs*
Forgive my language expressions. Or structure. Or grammar. Or vocab. I'm too tired so shut up.

The mid-break is here. FINALLY. I'm gonna take as much time as I can to rest up and relax. Recharge my batteries, so to speak. It's been a while since I last got a chance to basically do nothing all day long and mope around the house acting like a total dork. It's time for my re-decorating plan to be put into action. Now that could possibly work.

Oh well.
It's almost midnight and I'm suddenly hungry. Toasted wholemeal bread with hazelnut spread, anyone?
No we know where all those excess fat comes from.
*raises eyebrows*

Britney's new single is out, people!
The live-stream link to the song is on the sidebar, in case y'all haven't noticed.

I miss my home. I miss Mom. I miss my grandma. I miss my hamsters. I miss sleeping in my own super-comfy queen-sized bed. In miss the double pillows. And the softness of the mattress. And the warm comforter. And the adorable blue Spidey covers. *sighs*
It pains me to think that right now my parents are happily frolicking across Turkey and Eastern Europe enjoying their holiday while I'm stuck Down Under mourning over my own depressed, pathetic life.

*sobs quietly*
Reality bites. And it hurts.

Nite, everyone.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

...never let it snap, two for my seconds...

One down, two to go.
*wipes sweat off forehead*

I finally submitted my International Business assignment this afternoon. I had a good group, and my groupmates were all committed to their work, so the process of doing the assignment was basically a no-hassle. I had to head home and re-send the missing references for my part when we were doing the reference list earlier this afternoon, and one of my groupmates had trouble printing the cover sheets, but other than that, everything went well. Good job guys! *grins*

That leaves me with another two Marketing reports to finish. Who needs a holiday. *sighs*
And I can't exactly say that I'm not worried about them. The MKC2210 one is particularly tough to finish. I really hope everything will go as planned. I really can't wait for the mid-break to come.

Oh, I saw Gaby today! *waves*
Random thought. Pardon me. LOL.

By the way.
I wanna re-decorate my room and rearrange my furniture. For real. My room feels utterly plain and boring. And plain and boring aren't exactly my forte, y'know? Gotta spice it up a notch and make it more JJ, if you get my drift. *laughs*

I've bought three big posters from the ever-reliable eBay a couple of days ago. I've started doing a small random decoration on the spare wall beside my wardrobe. And lately I've been collecting free postcards with wacky pictures and other eye-catchy stuff from everywhere, and I'm planning to make, like, a HUGE collage made out of those postcards and stick it to my wall or something. Good preparation, I know; all I gotta do now is find a time to actually do all those things.

Lucky for me the mid-break is coming soon.
And instead of going out five days a week and spend like $500 on food and leisure, why not stay home and re-decorate? *wink wink*

I'm such a dork, I know.
Better get back to my Marketing reports now. God knows I should be spending tonight working my ass off to finish at least one of them before sunrise.

Here's the LINK to the article.
Yay for marine life. Hope this sighting can actually spark the attention of us all Melburnians of the fact that we've got a handful of exotic marine animals in our backyard. Keep our waters clean, people! *grins*

And oh yeah, on a sidenote, I found THIS interesting article in today's edition of The Age. It sorta reminds me of my less-than-acceptable BHS1712 presentation about online privacy last week. *cringes*
It's amazing, really, what people can do on the Internet nowadays. Kinda freaky at the same time too, though. Feel free to have a read.

Hope y'all will have a pleasant week ahead!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

...someday i'll wish upon a star...

Currently listening to: Over the Rainbow - Jane Monheit

Rusden House, Notting Hill, Sept 19 2008

Rainbows make my day. *grins*

It happened last Friday. Jacelyn and I were busy playing Guitar Hero in her apartment while waiting for the rain to stop so I could head home when suddenly we heard the rain making funky rattling noises outside the window. Out of curiosity (and to avoid further embarrassment since I had been losing to her all the while anyway) we went out to her balcony to see what was going on.

And there it was. At that exact time, hail started to pour.
It was quite interesting, really, watching small, solid ice pebbles showering down from the gloomy sky and hitting the rooftops below the balcony of Jacelyn's apartment, making funny noises all the while. It lasted for about five minutes before it finally ceased down and a rainbow then appeared!

*stops writing, glassy-eyed*

...Well on second thoughts, no, I am NOT that sappy.
But yeah, when I was a kid, I used to be a hardcore believer in all those stupid fairytale stuff that my parents told me about magical creatures. For example, I used to believe that when one of my baby teeth fell out, I had to keep it under my pillow so that the tooth fairy could take it in my sleep and exchange it with money. Or that Santa Claus really existed. Or that at the end of every rainbow, there was a pot of gold belonging to a leprechaun, and that the rainbow would be the sign of him traveling from one end to the other to visit his treasure.

And I know that believing in those things is an essential part of the childhood stage, but now I just think that they're all stupid. Maybe I'm already way past my fairytale days, or something. At least seeing rainbows still excited me. *grins*

YAY for hails in Spring!
I actually saw another rainbow when I was around campus the other day, at the very beginning of Spring I think, and I did take some pictures of the rainbow, but I gotta dig through my pile of photos to find them first.

Oh, found it. Here it is.

That was taken somewhere around the main street of Monash Clayton. I don't even know what the street's name is; I just pass through it everyday on my way to and from uni.

Right. I gotta go take a shower now.

Have a great Sunday, people.
I'll make sure I'll get some work done by the end of today. Promise.


"...Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue...
And the dreams that you dare to dream,
Really do come true..."

Thursday, September 18, 2008

...forget the loneliness and the sorrow...

Currently listening to: Especially For You - MYMP

Whew. Can you say RELIEF?
*lets out a long heave of breath*

My BHS1712 oral presentation is over and done with, and it went quite well, thankfully.
Well I didn't think that it was good enough since all the way through the 10 painful minutes all I did was stutter incontrollably and mix up words over and over, making myself even more incomprehensible than I already am. But maybe I was just expecting too much out of myself, and it's kinda ironic since I didn't exactly prepare for it properly to begin with. So, yeah. I'm not feeling as retarded and stupid now. *grins*

And whatever has happened to my otherwise-decent SoCal-accented English?
If you guys know me in person you should be aware that I tend to sound like an irresponsible fast-talking chatterbox when I'm speaking in English. But when I was doing my presentation this morning I sounded like a pathetic, introverted loser with no life. Dang, seems like I've lost my touch, lingo-wise. *sighs*

Now I'm sitting in the ever-convenient Campus Center computer lab with nothing to do till 2pm. I really don't feel like going to my MKC2210 tute later but since I'm already at uni maybe I should just get through with it and go home to catch up on my sleep later. *yawns*

I could really use a good time-out right about now.
Since last week all I've been doing is work, work, and more work. Basically I've been doing a lot of intensive socializing with my laptop, various study desks around campus, journal articles, heavy textbooks, and countless cups of late-night coffee. God knows what's gonna be left of my old sociable self after these busy days are gone.

Call me delusional, I somehow feel like with every (insufficient) sleep that I take every night, I grow even more tired when I wake up the next morning. Seems like I'm constantly feeling exhausted and worn-out. True, I still manage to fit in little bits of slight fun every now and then between piles of work (read: procrastinating sessions galore), but I can't help but feel like my academic routine is slowly sucking the life and happiness out of me.

*stretches hands wide in the air*

Drama king.
I know i'm not making any sense so I think I should stop and head to Menzies now.

Some preppy-looking kids with maroon-colored school uniforms just walked past a couple of seconds ago. They look GOOD, and so uncharacteristically preppy. Reminds me of my own retarded, preppy-kid-wannabe high-school days back in J-town.
Oh, they actually don't have preppy stuff down here in Australia, by the way. Either the style is unknown to the Australian public or that it exists with a different name. but I'm sure they've gotta have an Aussie equivalent of preppy kids, yeah? Just sayin'. *shrugs*

Oh, it's already 1.45 pm. Can't believe I just spent like half an hour typing up this crap.
Catch ya guys later. =]

Saturday, September 13, 2008 heavy heart sinks deep down under...

Currently listening to: Love Song - Sara Bareilles

Frankston Beach, Sept 6 2008

Winter is officially over and I'm not sure how I feel about it.

Was out and about in Clayton Road this afternoon, despite my earlier statement (as y'all Facebook addicts out there might have figured out from my ever-changing status) that I wouldn't be going out today, and halfway through my grocery-shopping fiesta I almost got pissed off by the fact that the sun was scorching, the winds were gusty, and there was dust flying everywhere.

I mean, c'mon. I know it's already mid-September and it's about damn time the sun started shining once again, but, helloooo, transition period, anyone?
Well logically, you just can't just wake up after a frosty night all curled up under your covers and find yourself sweating because of the morning heat, right? There must always be a gap between changes to allow for some adjustment. Agreed?

*shakes head*

Whatever. I guess I'm just feeling a little annoyed that it's getting warm and I didn't get a chance to say goodbye to the cold, being the over-sentimental spoiled brat that I am. No more fancy coats, no more scarfs, no more heaters, no more walking home with vapor-y breaths and frozen hands. *sighs*

Yet it's good to know that Mother Nature is still leaving behind some traces of cold; I can expect next week's weather to be slightly cooler, judging from the weekly forecast just published a couple of hours ago. I hope this year's Spring is festive!

As you guys might well remember, during last year's Spring I was facing exams so I didn't get to participate in the festivity of the season. But this year I promise myself I'm gonna do everything I can to make the most of the flowers season, and entertain myself silly. After all, the semester break is coming soon and during the break I won't have any more assignments to do! *jumps around secretly in the background*

Oh yeah. Just this morning I found out that there are beautiful flowers blooming all around my backyard! I didn't get a chance to take a picture of it this morning as I was probably too busy getting all hyped up about it with my housemates, but I promise I'll take one tomorrow and post it here, for the sake of showing off. *snickers* But no, seriously, they're gorgeous. So, yeah. One picture tomorrow, promise.

Okay. I think that's it for today.
I know lately it may seem that my blogposts have been turning into more of like a set of weekend-special texts, since I only post updates on weekends and all, but I guarantee this won't become a habit. I've been terribly busy these past couple of weeks, and I am actually still busy, but I've been trying to find excuses to NOT get to work and actually get something done. I'll probably do something productive after this, though. For the record, I've just finished a generous cup of coffee and now I'm revitalized, sorta. *laughs*

And oh yeah. On a sidenote, I was talking to my housemates this morning about various things that we think are overrated. Stuff like falling in love, graduating early and getting a job, buying a house and settling down, even getting all crazy about Spring and feeling a bit too happy because flowers are blooming on our backyard *cough cough*.

But d'you wanna know what I think is overrated right now?
Katy Perry's "I Kissed A Girl". Now that spells overrated, with caps and bold letters.
I mean, seriously, it's been talked about and discussed and taunted and criticized and so overly publicized up to a point that it gets too redundant.
So now the whole world probably knows that she kissed a girl, and she liked it. So what? *shrugs*

...Look just what hot weather and a slight migraine can do to JJ's sanity.
Have a good weekend, everyone.

Sunday, September 07, 2008 did the years go by?...

Currently listening to: What You Waiting For - Gwen Stefani

Frankston Beach, Sept 6 2008

The above picture effortlessly spells STUNNING, I know. Nothing beats the peaceful beauty of a beach during sunset.
I still find it hard to believe that I took that picture using my usually-mediocre cameraphone.

*hums absentmindedly*
Oh dang. I should be doing my research now.
I guess any excuse to NOT start researching is good for the time being, so why not blog instead?

For the record, the road trip yesterday was amazingly FUN, with caps; I'm still reeling from yesterday's happy mood as I type, to say the least. My back hurts, my hair color tone has lightened slightly, probably due to overexposure to the mineral-filled hot-spring water, and my poor skin is severely dehydrated, drizabone.
Dunno if I even used that Aussie slang correctly but you can't blame a guy for trying. *laughs*

Photos of the trip are up on the usual site, all frikkin' four albums of them *blinks*, and I spent like half an hour last night doing the honor of tagging happy faces and overexcited grins scattered aplenty all over the place.
It's becoming more of a habit, really; first, Edina will upload the pics after a trip. I will come forward and do my job as the tagging prodigy for the pics, and soon after the rest of the gang will immediately start bitching about unglam shots and the like in the comments. If we're lucky, the photos will stay as they are, albeit full of negative, often-suicidal comments but otherwise intact. Yet there are times when fierce untag fights may occur amongst subjects, or between subjects and the tagging prodigy in questions. *raises eyebrows*
Let's hope this time things will stay under control.

Back to the actual trip thingy,
It was definitely the most fun I have had so far this year, without a doubt.
I mean, spending an entire day hanging out with my favorite group of people road-tripping across town? What can possibly be better than that? As if driving along a beautiful coastline while listening to happy songs and singing along doesn't sound like a piece of heaven already. But yeah, you get the point.

I freaking LOVE those people. *grins*
Can't wait for the next outing, whenever and wherever that may be.

For now, I gotta snap myself out of my dreamy state and get back to work.
I've got an essay due on Wednesday and haven't even done the slightest bit of research for it. Gotta fire up and read those bloody textbooks I borrowed! *sighs*

On a sidenote:
I know this is so random, but I'm so excited to see what Britney Spears is going to do in this year's MTV Video Music Awards. People have been buzzing about it but so far nothing's been confirmed other than the fact that she is indeed going to be opening the show. OMG I'm so excited! I hope she won't mess up like she did last year. *crosses fingers*

Have a FABULOUS week, guys!
I know I'll try and have one, as busy and occupied as I also know I will be.

And lastly, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! =]